Funny Face

Stylish White Female...: SWF seeks... a better body image.

Wherever there is a conversation about fashion, you can be almost certain a conversation about body image will follow. My brain {i.e. this blog} is unfortunately no exception.

On any given day, at any given hour, my opinion of myself oscillates between, “You’re looking great, hot mama” to “You…

I’ve had a post about post-partum body image tumbling around in my head for a while now. Right now I’m feeding a baby peaches, so I don’t have time to elaborate, but it boils down to how I’ve gained back most of the weight I lost during those first terrible post-partum depression riddled months, and I’m having trouble regulating my body’s dietary needs because nursing makes me RAVENOUS and unable to deal with feeling even slightly hungry. I need more calories than I have before, but I haven’t figured out how many calories more or how to make those calories healthy ones instead of eating a box of wheat thins every couple days (I wish I was kidding). I also haven’t had the time to run as much as I did before, which has always been how I regulate my weight. Gained a few pounds? Run harder and more frequently. I don’t recognize my body, which I knew to expect, but it’s still depressing that it matters so much to me. I do believe that I will get to a better place, both mentally and physically. And I try to accept the body I have now by wearing a bikini and form-fitting clothes and trying to remind myself that I had a baby 7 months ago and that having a thicker waist was always, duh, a foregone conclusion.